Purpose

How does this happen?
I never use to be like this
What were my plans?
Before I changed them around

I was never motivated enough in the past
Doing the work required, but for what?
I never really gave it much thought
I wasn't sure of my future goals

But now I'm determined
I've done what took me two years longer than others my age to complete
I'm making it my duty to see medical research does NOT stop
Change is coming and it's got my name on it

The way things are done now
Making pills, not to help others
But for a "band-aid" fix
A giant corporation made to make money

We need cures, proper vaccines, effective medications
We need people who care about the people
We need to take over the positions of people who decide these things
We need change

Now I know why I worked the way I did
I need to find that again
The initiative to get things done
The purpose being, a better world

I Pray

I pray
For courage
I pray
For love

They say:
'The nerve!
He's gay!
He'll never receive blessings from above!'

But they don't know
If only they did
Maybe if they knew what I know
Their tiny minds may expand

I have gifts
And have tried to receive them gracefully
Seeing rainbows, lights and feeling it as consciousness shifts
But now I know who I am

I am an angel of light
And the lights are my angel companions
The rainbow is my birthright
I use it to heal

Yet, being this is also being another
I'm a demon
I don't care to know about that because it makes me shudder
But it's the dark lord that owes me

I pray for clarity of these things
What do you pray for?

Angelic Musings

If only I could learn more
I'd want to now what I'm capable of
I know what I am
But I need to find what I can do

I know of the things that come easily
Intuition, spells
Connection with God and angels 24/7
I can heal, and do a lot of damage

I can't help feeling there's more I can do
And I want to become more
The future keeps surprising us
Another horror or miracle awaiting each turn

This earth leaves me feeling stuck
And I want to grow wings and fly away
Must I earn them first?
I wish I'd never gotten stuck in this

A human experience is challenging
But we make it by
One of my reasons to be incarnated was to bring hope
And now I know why

Wonton Walk-In

Wontons and spring rolls
Waiting for Chinese
'No understand'
Not an English speaker
Food's done
Another 5 minute meal