Who Am I Now?

I've always watched from the sidelines
Inspecting people as they go by
I've always been trapped and confined
Forcing myself to watch people and time pass by

But something changed
I came out of my shell
Priorities rearranged
But still as unconfident as hell

So I changed that too
Now look who I am today
A confident, people-person, whoo
The person I was should have stayed that way

At least I was passing
Instead of dropping out
At least I knew who I was
None of this self doubt

The drugs and alcohol
They came with a price
Dropping out and losing it all
If you're reading this, take my advice

Learn from the fool
Writing this blog
Stay in school
And stay off the pot

To Whom This May Concern

I need help
My life is going
Going, gone
How could I ever be so wrong?
Walking, tripping, stumbling along
And here I thought I was so strong

I need a doctor
My heart failing
Failing, dead
I have no thoughts left in my head
Listening, contemplating, repeating what you said
And now my face is turning red

I need a hero
My hope is fading
Fading, none
I should be having fun
Jumping, laughing, playing in the sun
Instead I'm sitting here with this gun

Won't you help me?
Before it's too late
It's too late already
Soon my brain will be jelly
My insides as dead as spaghetti
And now I know I'm ready

So I pull the trigger
And there's no more regretting

Draw The Line

We ought to pick a place
It's far overdue
If you back out, just in case
We'll be the ones who come to you

All my days spent on this planet
I'd trade for one day back home
All my nights to understand it
All my noons to know what I know

Because this world is full of strange things
Stranger than we know
Because this world is full of scary things
A separate world below

Although scary at first
Maybe it's just misunderstanding
And even though you might think the worst
We could learn to cooperate, with proper and adequate planning

We need to draw the line
And decide what we want as a civilization
Do we want to be able to get along fine
Or do we want nation against nation?

Don't Stop

Full of corruption
Empty of love
Our world is nothing but interruption
When we could be looking up

Look up into the skies
It's what we've waited for
For so long, force-fed lies
We battle our own silent war

Stars in the heavens
Send us hope
Double elevens
We're slipping down a steep slope

Can't give up now
When we're so close
I don't know how
But I'll change my ways I suppose

When it's so close you can almost feel it
Reach out and take it
And when you feel like you're about to drop
Rest for a while, but never stop

In The Atmosphere

Floating here

All alone

I have no fear

I'm all alone

The only thing bothering me

Is that no one's on my wavelength

The only thing I can seem to see

Is people with lack of strength

Spinning idly

Drifting around

Flying wildly

Like an other worldly cloud

Where are the people in the atmosphere

I came here to find

I jumped out of the biosphere

And landed here in my mind

Now I'm waiting for someone like me

Who gets what I'm about

Now I'm waiting to fly free

To be sailing by without a doubt

Someone to catch me if I should fall

So I don't have to waste it all

I don't want to leave this place, dear

Up here, In the atmosphere

Open

I was an outcast
I'd never let anyone in
When you're always last
You never win

But then I changed
And people know me
Priorities rearranged
Yet I'm still feeling lonely

I'm open
Waiting for the one
It keeps me hoping
Knowing my journey's just begun

I was in doubt
Who am I supposed to be?
Trying to figure myself out
I was blinded by lies and couldn't see

But now I know the truth
I'm not in denial anymore
I've got the proof
Yet I've still nothing to use it for

I'm open
Are you the one?
I'm hoping
Praying this heartache is done

I was asleep
When you came into my life
I'm still half-asleep
And you came out of nowhere like being stabbed by a knife

Sudden and unexpected
How did this happen?
Has my love life been resurrected?
Is this supposed to happen?

I'm wide-open
Just waiting for you
I'm constantly hoping
You feel the way I do