Pine

My distant dearest
What more can you do?
Everything's up to me

As far as I can see
This is my duty
As far as I can tell
Missing you hurts like hell

My sweet surrender
You know there's nothing I wouldn't do
Time to wait and see

As far as I can remember
I've waited forever
As far as I can recall
Distance never seemed so small

My bereft beloved
When I have you to myself, there's nothing I won't do
Leave it to me

As far as I'm concerned
It's my heart you have returned
As far as I know
You're the one thing I can't let go

The Objective

Many have come
Far and wide
To do what must be done
Experienced by their own kind

We have the knowledge, the wisdom, and the power
Although we might not know it yet
We have the drive, the determination, the honest intention
To create a world we won't regret

Wake up now,
Star-seed, Crystal, or Rainbow
Rouse us all
From this eternal slumber
Wake up now,
Guides, Elders, and Teachers
Show us the way and lead us to what is right

Let's empower a nation, first
Next, the world
Great things happen from one good idea
What great things will you accomplish?

What Is Going On?

Our whole planet is going crazy
Plagued by what we don't know
A planet full of turmoil
Covered by a thick blanket of doubt

Open your eyes, Pessimist
The world isn't so grey;
Lead the way, Optimist
The world through a better day

Some people claim to be realist
But if they really were
Maybe our world wouldn't be the way it is now
Highly based on conjecture

All I know is the world could be better
But for now we'd never know
All this disbelief around us
In the midst, hope the truth may show

Comatose

Stuck in this fragile state
Silence
That's all that's there day after day

Unable to make choices
Frozen
Trapped in a frozen waterfall

How long will this last?
No way to tell
Will it go by fast?
Or take it's time
Only time will tell

Falling faster and faster now
All these emotions speed by
Hate, Anger
Love, Happiness

I can see a light
Darkness fading
Warmth returns like a shot to the heart
Everything becomes a little clearer

Familiar sounds
Voices of people I know
The beeping of the heart rate monitor
Drizzling rain

I open my eyes for the first time in months
At first it's bright
A blinding light
Then it recedes
The intense light of the sun

As I glance around the room
There's no one here
Decaying flowers stand beside me
Petals litter the small bedside table
It's not raining any more
The sky is lit up once again

The machines aren't working
Screens are simply blank
No lights on, either
Where's everybody?

For a few minutes I lie in bed
The same bed I've been confined to for God knows how long
Trying to process this situation
No answer comes to mind

I stand up
Or try to at least
With my legs out of commission for so long
I fall to the floor

With a few exercises
The feeling comes back
I rise shakily to my feet and look out the window

No one
Empty cars for blocks
But no people

Am I truly alone?

Then,
A thought
One that doesn't make sense
But I can't shake it
Could it be possible?
Nothing else makes sense
But neither does this

Zombies

Maybe I am alone

Purpose

How does this happen?
I never use to be like this
What were my plans?
Before I changed them around

I was never motivated enough in the past
Doing the work required, but for what?
I never really gave it much thought
I wasn't sure of my future goals

But now I'm determined
I've done what took me two years longer than others my age to complete
I'm making it my duty to see medical research does NOT stop
Change is coming and it's got my name on it

The way things are done now
Making pills, not to help others
But for a "band-aid" fix
A giant corporation made to make money

We need cures, proper vaccines, effective medications
We need people who care about the people
We need to take over the positions of people who decide these things
We need change

Now I know why I worked the way I did
I need to find that again
The initiative to get things done
The purpose being, a better world

I Pray

I pray
For courage
I pray
For love

They say:
'The nerve!
He's gay!
He'll never receive blessings from above!'

But they don't know
If only they did
Maybe if they knew what I know
Their tiny minds may expand

I have gifts
And have tried to receive them gracefully
Seeing rainbows, lights and feeling it as consciousness shifts
But now I know who I am

I am an angel of light
And the lights are my angel companions
The rainbow is my birthright
I use it to heal

Yet, being this is also being another
I'm a demon
I don't care to know about that because it makes me shudder
But it's the dark lord that owes me

I pray for clarity of these things
What do you pray for?

Angelic Musings

If only I could learn more
I'd want to now what I'm capable of
I know what I am
But I need to find what I can do

I know of the things that come easily
Intuition, spells
Connection with God and angels 24/7
I can heal, and do a lot of damage

I can't help feeling there's more I can do
And I want to become more
The future keeps surprising us
Another horror or miracle awaiting each turn

This earth leaves me feeling stuck
And I want to grow wings and fly away
Must I earn them first?
I wish I'd never gotten stuck in this

A human experience is challenging
But we make it by
One of my reasons to be incarnated was to bring hope
And now I know why

Wonton Walk-In

Wontons and spring rolls
Waiting for Chinese
'No understand'
Not an English speaker
Food's done
Another 5 minute meal

Good vs. Evil

What's happening to this head of mine?
Getting caught up in darkness
It isn't like me
But it's been me all along

What's happening to this heart of mine?
Consumed with malice
I can't be like this
But it's what I've always been

One side I am good
An angel, in fact
The other, I'm a demon
A dark prince, if you will

Are both sides fighting for control
Or do I have another purpose?
Have both sides co-exist in peace
Because it's not something we can choose

Maybe before, but I've clearly made my choice
What is there to lose?
With so much of what's ours taken away
We have so much to gain